Saturday, July 03, 2010

Lonely


Bee left for Malaysia this morning.

In fact, he just left the apartment not to long ago, and I'm already missing him.

He is gonna be away in KL for the next 4-5 weeks for a few important appointments plus some other business to attend to, so I'm left here all by my lonesome self.

I sent him off in a cab downstairs because I couldn't bear the thought of or watching him walking away into the departure gate and then having to come back from airport alone.

The last time I did that, I cried like a baby on the way back and had strangers staring at me.

Wen offered to take me out shoe shopping to cheer me up, but I turned it down because I'm just not in the mood to do anything at all.

Not today, at least.

I'd like to think that I'm not the type of girl who needs to be with her boyfriend/husband 24/7, but it's really hard not having him around now.

You know, with the shitty conditions (note: plural) at work, my super annoying housemate and her even more annoying boyfriend, TM (who totally deserves a league of her own when it comes to being a pain in the ass), the 10 thousand other things which are going on in my life and not to mention, my current fragile state.

I feel lonelier than I have been in a very long time.