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Off to Cat City
I'm still sleeping and waking up at odd hours, no thanks to my irregular sleep pattern in KL.
But tonight, I'm sleepless for a different reason.
I'm flying off to Cat City early in the morning with mum for her quarter-yearly checkup.
Every 3 months, she has to have a blood test and MRI done. Every 3 months, I'm reminded of the fear of losing her.
Waiting for the checkup results, is like waiting for a verdict between life and death. It's cruel, and at the same time, terrifying.
I don't know how afraid she is to have to go through such ordeal every 3 months, because she never lets us see her worries. I don't know how to make her feel better, except to pretend to be strong so she doesn't see my worries too.
I don't even know how to gauge how much my heart aches, each and every time.
But tonight, I'm sleepless for a different reason.
I'm flying off to Cat City early in the morning with mum for her quarter-yearly checkup.
Every 3 months, she has to have a blood test and MRI done. Every 3 months, I'm reminded of the fear of losing her.
Waiting for the checkup results, is like waiting for a verdict between life and death. It's cruel, and at the same time, terrifying.
I don't know how afraid she is to have to go through such ordeal every 3 months, because she never lets us see her worries. I don't know how to make her feel better, except to pretend to be strong so she doesn't see my worries too.
I don't even know how to gauge how much my heart aches, each and every time.
