Friday, May 15, 2009

When Life Gets You Down

"The best we can do, is breathe and reboot.
And when that fails, a zip drive can provide a surprising amount of comfort.
So can a boyfriend.....if you can learn to let him."
~ Carried Bradshaw (Sex and the City)

I hesitated as I placed my finger on the "enter" key.

I asked myself, am I running away?

Am I just a spoilt little brat who runs home crying whenever things don't go my way? Am I admitting defeat even before putting up a fight? Am I giving up too easily because I couldn't even bother to try a little harder?

And then I thought to myself, what would others think?

Would they think that I'm running away from my problems? Would they think less of me since I was once regarded as a tough little cookie? Would they think that I no longer have what it takes to handle a difficult situation?

Then I hit "enter".

Not because I have all the answers, but because I don't.

Hopping on a plane isn't going to solve the problems at hand, but just because my life is not what everyone, including myself, expects it to be at the moment, doesn't mean I should stop living it.

We might never know what is the right thing to do, right path to take, or the right way to live our lives. It's all we could do to pick one to the best of our knowledge, or sometimes, our hunch.

Because the truth is, we're all just figuring out this giant puzzle we've been given.

And this is my attempt to breath, and reboot.