Saturday, June 20, 2009


I made a decision yesterday.

I don't know whether it was the right thing to do.

The fact is, I might never know.

Having to make that decision broke my heart. A small part of me died with it.

My heart aches so badly that it might never be able to heal completely.

I guess my only consolation comes from knowing that we are going through this together.

That I have you by my side, and I am not alone.

Did you realise that it was the first major decision we've had to make as a couple?

It's just sad that it had to be under such difficult and unfortunate circumstances.

A line from an old TV series brought me a little comfort during a particularly sad moment the other day:

"Sometimes in a relationship, going through hell isn't so bad if you come out of it a little stronger."
~ Sally (Felicity)

You know, for the longest time, it feels like our lives have been clouded over by a gloomy haze that is almost impossible to to see through.

It's daunting, depressing, and discouraging.

I don't know how or when this phase of our lives is going to clear up and we will be on the way up again.

I can only hope that when we do, we will come out of it stronger, and closer than ever.

And this would have been worth it.