Monday, September 18, 2006

Another Monday

I was supposed to start studying today.

I didn't. The procrastinator in me.

I feel so incompetent that I'm afraid of going back to work. I've been away for way too long, I feel like a stranger to the industry now.

I REALLY should start studying. If only I knew how to nail that into my head.

I miss Melbourne. I miss the shopping, the lifestyle, the working environment, the friends I have there, Italian food in Lygon Street, big breakfast in St. Kilda, and just about everything else.

I miss the life I used to have. I just function better there.

But I'm gonna miss my loved ones in Malaysia. My parents, my brothers, and my Bee. I love them so much and I hate to leave them. Oh I'm missing them already!

Why can't I have both at the same time? Why do I have to choose?

I guess I'll never understand.

6 left a petal:

Jemima said...

That's life - full of "whys" & "ifs" - & making difficult choices.

You know you can count on me, my friend - regardless of whatever road you take.


MisSmall said...

Jemima: Don't we just hate making choices in life? But then again, maybe we should be thankful that we were given choices.

Thanks, girl! You're so sweet! *Hugs*

~TheAngel~ said...

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MisSmall said...

Theangel: You're welcome, girl.

KY said...

easy, move to tokyo.

MisSmall said...

Ky: Wow, why didn't I think of that? *Rolls eyes*