Friday, September 15, 2006


I meant to blog. But first streamyx was down for days, then my brother's computer broke down. -_-

I decided sometime this week that I am to return to Melbourne in a few weeks time, and the decision immediately took its effects on me.

Something is very wrong when I wake up at 6 o'clock in the morning everyday for no apparent reason. And I don't sleep as well at nights.

I don't have much appetite these days. I just remember that I only ate one meal today, and that's not a very normal thing when you're living at home.

I stare into blankness for hours without myself realising it. I feel like crying for no reasons at all. I no longer know how to make pleasant conversation with people. My stomach feels acidic and there are bad butterflies in it all day long.

I've been through depression and I could smell it from a mile away.

You make the best outta the situation, they say. But I don't know which corner to turn.

I'm cornered.

What goes up must come down. What about those that had gone down, do they ever come up?