Thursday, February 17, 2011


Today, I woke up feeling completely worn out. Like an old piece of mouldy soggy rug.

Didn't get much sleep at all last night even though I probably loaded myself with enough sleeping pills to tranquilise a rhino.

To be honest, I feel like a hypocrite.

You see, I advise and encourage my insomniac patients to use natural treatments (eg. exercise, eliminating stress, diet, adjusting sleep patterns and rhythms, supplements, etc.) instead of depending on medications, while I myself pop sleeping tablets like lollies on some days.

I feel like a phoney. I really do.

But hey, haven't you ever had an obese cardiologist who tells you to go on diet or exercise more to lose weight and stay healthy?

We all talk the talk, but how many of us can really walk the walk?

Moving on.

So I went to work today looking and feeling worse for wear. I was so tired I could barely keep my eyes open and concentrate.

To make matters worse, we were understaffed today because one of the full-timers called in sick. Actually, she didn't even call, she just didn't show up for work, so I didn't get ample notification beforehand to have time to organise for extra staff to cover her shift.

And it really didn't help that Thursday is the day when all the crazy and cranky come out to play. :|

It was so chaotic that at one point, I seriously felt like breaking down and screaming "STOP!" to make everything and everyone pause for a brief moment just so I can breath.

You know, like in the cartoons, where the frame freezes, the characters become idle, and the world literally stops spinning. How cool would it be if we were able to take time-out's like that in real life huh?

By the time I finished for the day, I was exhausted. I just wanted to go home, dig a hole, crawl into it, and hibernate for rest of the year.

And that is when I suddenly remembered that I've actually double-booked Bee and myself for dinner. This whole going-back-to-work and lack-of-sleep thing has really taken a toll on me.

I promised to meet up with Wen and KT in the city, and completely forgot that Bee and I already had dinner plans with another friend.

So we had to cancel on Wen and KT because we made plans with the other friend first and I already bailed on him once last week. :P

Dinner was good, except that I didn't know this friend of ours seems to know everyone in the area.

We sat at the alfresco dining area because it was such a beautiful summer night, and we constantly had people stopping to say hi or sitting down at our table for a chit-chat. Mostly owners of local businesses and vendors.

It was delightful, really. Unexpected, but rather entertaining.

Well, I guess it was only enjoyable because my 3-day weekend officially starts tonight.

And maybe the fact that my mum texted me earlier on to remind me that it's Chap Goh Meh today so I felt slightly more, well, festive.

By the time Bee and I got home, I was absolutely drained.

I'm so tired at the moment that I don't think I want to move a single muscle on my body for the next 24 hours!

Oh thank God for weekends!